Ron Hicks, The Embrace

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•  24 April 2013  •  6,567 notes

•  21 April 2013

Is it bad that I hope I’m on your list?

•  15 April 2013

•  12 April 2013

Yeah, so I need a distraction… You can’t be mad at me for being human. Yeah he’s a douche and yeah I probably shouldn’t invite him up to see me but I need to stop thinking about other things so much, and this is the best way I can think of to do that. I’m an idiot who wants what they can’t have so instead I’ll just drive myself crazy with even more bullshit.

•  7 April 2013

you consider gummy bears to be palette cleansers

•  2 April 2013

My dad has no friends. I want to feel bad for him, but how can I feel bad for someone who made his own choices and only now realizes he hates the consequences?

The only company my dad has had since he walked out on us is his (now ex) girlfriend and his fugly dog (who now lives with the ex-girlfriend). I have no idea what he saw in either of them, but to each his own. But now since they’ve left, he really has no one. He turned his back on everyone and everything. He left his wife, his three kids, his two dogs, his huge house, and his best friends just to fuck a taller, blonder bitch and buy a louder, faster car.

I get it. Life sucks and sometimes you want to bail. But don’t complain about having no one when you left the four most important someones in your life without even looking back.

Happy fucking birthday. I miss you. And I fucking hate your guts.

•  4 March 2013

best scene ever it’s so accurate

•  1 March 2013

I had the strangest dream last night. But you were there, and everything was right, and everything was wonderful.

•  25 February 2013

Today is the one year anniversary of my death. That is, if I had actually died on February 15, 2012, today would be the one year anniversary of my death. But I didn’t. Instead I’m sitting here writing this, wondering if I’ll find some miraculous meaning in my being alive for the last year. Still wondering. And still…

So instead of wallowing in self-pity and writing about how much I haven’t done in hopes of making my life worthwhile, I’m going to write a list of things I’ve done in the last year that have made me happy, or uncomfortable, or sad, or angry, or hopeful, or scared, or awestruck. I’m going to make a list of all the things that I’ve done in the last year that have made me feel alive.

1. I jumped in a huge puddle in wellies and still managed to get soaked
2. I laid in the middle of the golf course with my best friend and looked at the stars
3. I cut off all of my hair
4. I spent a week in a psychiatric hospital
5. I swam in the ocean
6. I went for a run
7. I spent hundreds of hours in therapy
8. I wrote a paper about something I’m passionate about
9. I made new friends
10. I found a creepy note taped on my door from a guy who tried to offer me money
11. I got a tattoo that I love
12. I cut myself
13. I took a long bubble bath in the dark
14. I rode in the first row of a lap band roller coaster with my hands up the entire time
15. I drove through the mountains
16. I told my mom about something I had been keeping inside for a long time
17. I spent a week at a beach house with family and old friends
18. I rode on a sailboat
19. I started a job that I love
20. I saw beautiful art
21. I took a pregnancy test
22. I found out that I wasn’t pregnant, just paranoid
23. I lived by myself for the first time
24. I spent a week in Louisiana with my best friend
25. I smoked a ton of weed
26. I held my friend tight as he told me that he had been raped
27. I had the perfect coke slurpee
28. I started my first internship at an art gallery
29. I told someone how I feel about them
30. I made a list of potential grad schools
31. I read a good book
32. I went to howl-o-scream and nearly peed myself
33. I got my nipples pierced
34. I had bronchitis
35. I started watching The Nanny every night
36. I bought fuzzy red handcuffs
37. I broke a bracelet my mom gave me
38. I dyed my hair purple
39. I got a nook
40. I saw The Artist in theatres with my best friend
41. I drove for hours with the windows down and the music blasting
42. I took a nap with my dog
43. I learned how to use a sewing machine
44. I spent an evening with my head in the toilet after drinking too much
45. I learned French
46. I bought dinner for a homeless man only to find that he had left when I came back out to give it to him
47. I fell in love with coffee cake muffins
48. I got another tattoo
49. I drew a picture in my art class that my mom loved so much she hung it in the kitchen
50. I helped a friend paint her house
51. I watched my neighbor learn to ride a bike and picked her up when she skinned her knees
52. I cried myself to sleep
53. I went dancing at a gay bar
54. I saw a concert
55. I tried tofu and decided that it’s not for me
56. I picked an academic advisor and declared my major
57. I played in the snow
58. I went stoned-swimming
59. I got a third tattoo
60. I had an IV in my neck
61. I found a Patagonia jacket for seven bucks in the thrift store
62. I broke my toe and had to walk around in a bootie
63. I held a baby
64. I moved my furniture around
65. I was given a catheter, which I have decided is the worst pain ever
66. I saw Despicable Me for the first time and cried like a baby
67. I ordered four pizzas in a week
68. I pulled an all-nighter in the library
69. I shaved the side of my head
70. I found out a friend’s cancer was gone

I think I’ll add more later

•  15 February 2013  •  2 notes